| lovin life |
[03 Oct 2008|12:16am] |
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System Of A Down |
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Everything is right in the world. I'm gonna be the one thing i always knew i would be good at. I'm gonna be a mom!!! yay me! I am in love with a wonderful man, whose name is Jonas and he is the best thing that ever happened to me, and i've never been as happy as i am now. He makes me be a better person than i thougt i would be. I'm 6 months pregnant and the baby is amazing, he is already so active and i love feeling his little kicks. me and jonas are getting married at the end of the month and my name will be taryn Marie Gavelis. I can't wait. The best thing about all of this is i'm living in the one place i always wanted to live SOUTH BOSTON!!!
Aint it great? i think it is.
Taryn Marie Norton (Gavelis)
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(Lenore.)
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| BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!! |
[27 Feb 2007|09:54pm] |
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wow. between, school, work, friends, family,working out, homework, college shit, and trying to catch some alone time... i am so totally fucking busy. im trying to lose 35 pounds by may, get into a good coleege, have enough money to have a life, spend the money i earn, and have a life....blaugh im about to tell everyone to fuck themselves well im off for taryn time which consists of Law and Order SVU!!!! ttyl love yall. ttfn ta ta for now.
LOVE,
Taryn
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(Lenore.)
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| EL FUCKING YAY!!!!!! |
[27 Feb 2007|03:27pm] |
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la didily didily dum i have a good day ahead of me... school, homewor, therapy(yay), work(yay), and Law and orser SVU 19 oclock... new episodes... el fucking yay!!!! so exciting
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(Lenore.)
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| a life |
[24 Feb 2007|12:42pm] |
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 fuckin psyched |
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going to the movies mofo's going to see hanible rising... i dont think i spelt that right... then going cd shopping bbl. love you all bye...
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(Lenore.)
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| i poet i am... |
[17 Feb 2007|04:34pm] |
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The hurt of failure,
a feeling too close.
no other emotions,
i miss happieness most.
Bad grades,
no job.
No liscence,
no mom.
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?
Too many rapes,
i won't count a one.
not just body, but of soul,
no permissoin of fun.
so fat,
so dumb.
can't stay,
must run.
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?
"You're not good enough!"
"i need 200%"
I'm given so much anger.
no love or respect.
She left me alone,
she preferred her damn drugs.
i was no priority,
i was never number one.
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?
he loved me,
he woke me,
out of my funk,
and then broke me.
He came back,
and did it again.
He left me to die,
i wished it would end.
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?
unwanted,
unloved.
forgotten undone.
left behind,
and abused.
so damn scared,
and misused.
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?
YOU'D FELL LIKE SHIT!
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(Lenore.)
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| brr..... |
[15 Feb 2007|07:33pm] |
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 fucking freezing |
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today was ok i guess. its so fucking cold. i hate the cold. mofo. i had to leave school before it was even third period. can you beive that? i had a huge migraine i still kind do. my toseys are cold. well i have to pee ttyl. love taryn
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(Lenore.)
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| i hate v-day |
[14 Feb 2007|08:44pm] |
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ok today was valintines day and once again i was single and depressed. i had offers from a couple people some frieinds and some kinda creepy, but im 16 years old i should have a date for valintines day. i should have a date for prom that i like as more than a friend. i didnt even get any cards. none not a goddamn one. i did get an irish neckalce from my step mom which i love. i spent my day spreading the word og HIM and creating fans of my entire school. fucking yippedy doo da... :-I. what the fuck ever.
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(Lenore.)
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| blaugh... |
[14 Feb 2007|08:40pm] |
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 in love with the past |
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i hate not having money and the fact that i like never do anything i miss having a life. i miss having kids my own age care about what happens to me. i miss having people to call no matter what. i especially miss my mom...
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(Lenore.)
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[23 Aug 2006|07:33pm] |
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wow i love how accepting my family is. they sit there and throw around the word fag like it doesn't effect me in the slightest bit. do i ask them to love that about me? no. do i ask them to put a rainbow flag up in our front yard? no. i just ask for acceptence. well fuck them. fuckin breeders....
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(Lenore.)
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[23 Aug 2006|07:33pm] |
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omg i just had the best day ever. I went to a concert that consisted of A+A, Taking Back Sunday, and this new band called the subways. It was so fuckin awesome. And before the show i got to meet A+A they were mostly pretty chill with the exeption of "atom" the drummer who was a complete douschebag. And omg Tom Delonge was introducing himself to us(i was wearing by black tank top) my sister was kinda in shock so she kinda said hi and then she said this is my little sister and seeing as how hes like 2 feet taller than me when he looked down to say hi to me he saw right down my shirt and was like "well hello lil sister." LOL he was like stating at my tits i was trying so hard not to laugh or hit on him back. I am on a wicked ego trip right now. So not only have i always wanted to bang tom but now i findout he wouldnt mind banging me how totally fucking awesome is that? the whole concert was great though. Taking Back Sunday was pretty fucking great. They are so more hard core than the radion lets u think. While A+A was on stage me and my sister thought it would be fun to stand up on the chairs so we could see over ereyone alses head, and sure enough Tom sees us and starts laughing in the middle of the song. it totally made the night si special and now when ever i hear any A+A or blink182 im gonna totally wig out or so i think. well got to go love yall bye.
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(Lenore.)
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| lif3 |
[16 Jun 2006|09:01am] |
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hyper to the mask |
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i lika do da cha cha.. uh huh. i like a do da cha cha. kbdvolhsfhsodghdlkjfbh
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(Lenore.)
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| when my dog runs away |
[13 Jun 2006|08:42am] |
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 AwAkE |
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lovin is what i got. lol. the only thing is that no one else has it. fuck this shit. i need to find some real people who know how i feel nad how i need to feel and how cold and lone ly thius cold dark world is. fuck. welp gots ta bounce ttyl. lots a love. yall. bye
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(Lenore.)
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| just about two |
[11 Jun 2006|10:29am] |
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LoVeD |
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just about two weeks.i am so happy. i am leaving this shit hole which i call an empty life to live in a house with my family and new memories to build. to a new town where my stupid empty minded childhood won't supress my need to do something with my life. no rumors, no taunting, no nothing i choose my fait this time, who knows what'll happen. i may just turn into the old me or i may turn in to the person i always wanted to be but couldn't get the will powewr to be different when people know how i can be. This time there won't be any "yo yo yo" no guys controlling my life decisions, no drugs destroying my future, i mean sure they'll all be there waiting for me but i think this last year has helped me to know i don't need that shit anymore.Who knows maybe this new life that im looking for will leave me without friends and shit but i only need to take a ten minute drive to see some of my real friends, and at night i can call the rest of my real friends. i think i have enough real friends to worry about fitting in, i fit in just the way i am and my real friends know that. i love all of my real friends and they know that and i hope that they know i wouldn't be who i am if it wasn't for them. hugs and kisses yall. much love. lol
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(Lenore.)
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| howdy yall |
[09 Jun 2006|09:09am] |
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hey everybody. whattup? not too much ova hea jus chillin. i had like 3 and a half monster energy drinks today and i feel like i'm not gonna be able to keep my hands or any other part of my body off of Tommy today. i need to not drink thses things before i see him unless if i'm just chillin wit him outside of school. i need to talk to him about the fact that i'm never gonna see him after i move because well lets face it we live in two different worlds. I think i really care about him, he's one of my best friends and in two weeks i'm most likely never gonna see him again. well w/e shit happens i guess i just need to get over him and move on. welp gots ta bounce. lots a love
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(Lenore.)
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| grrr... |
[02 Jun 2006|09:19am] |
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i don't wsant to have to work today. i want to go to mayda's d\graduation. but i really need m,oney so i'll do it. grrr. i should blow up shaws so i can like not have a job and not look bad for quiting. ch know? i mean i could never do that b ecause i have no balls but i like the ideas. hey i gotta go lots a love. taryn
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(Lenore.)
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| 13 |
[01 Jun 2006|01:45pm] |
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Thirteen is Love <3
i don't know hoiw to put these on my page if anyone knows how to can ya give me a holler?
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(Lenore.)
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| grr |
[01 Jun 2006|01:32pm] |
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i really don't want to have to work on friday. but that's okay because i never have to work after that. At least not at shaws. because today when i go into work, i'm gonna tell them that after friday i won't be available, which is semi true. i'll just tell tham, i'm sorry but after friday it just won't work. and then this weekend i'll put in a whole bunch of applications to different stores. wow only like 3 more weeks. i can't wait to live with the family unit. well i gots ta bounce/ lots o love
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(Lenore.)
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| yuck |
[30 May 2006|08:54am] |
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yuck. i feel so grosse right now. i need to get off all my meds and shit. i feel likei'm gonna throw up, and it's all because i took those pills on an empty stomach. but of course everythin's my fault so this must be my fault.what the fuck.. i am so not in a good mood. i need to move the fuck out of this depressing city and shit. i fucking hate it here. it makes me feel so bad for everyone and for some reason it makes me think. grosse huh? Maybe it's not this town it's just... oh what the fuck. i dunno i don't fucking care all i know is that in less than a month i will be with my family and for my first week of school i will be in bremuda with them. YEAH. Finally a life worth living. maybe that's why i feel so depressed cause i hate this place for keeping me away from them. i didn't want friend's here. i didn't want a job. i didn't want to like my teachers but i did. i got stuck with all those things and now it's keeping me from the one thing that would make me happy. my family. I also need to start seeing my nephew more. startin the last week of school. i'll be taking him every once in a while for the weekends to the house. and soon enough i'll forget the foser home and the foser mother and i'll love the family unit and the house. I already love the animals in the house, and i love my new family unit. and i love the house so why can't the state stop being gay and just let me be happy. no they'd rather i stay in fuckin waltham and be miserable for awhile ya know watch me squirm.fuck them. fuck this place fuck every one. fuck this goddamn life. peace
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(Lenore.)
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| grrrr... |
[29 May 2006|01:38pm] |
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I don't want to go back to the foster home. i like the new house. i love the family unit.i love my life when i'm here. cha know? i wish this school year would ned so i would have less time to wait to move in here perminantly i hate the foster home i get depressed and shit there. i mean this weekend there was only one thirty second period where i didn't want to be where i am and that was when i was at the mall and i saw the guy who raped me back in 2003. i was so fuckin scared. i'm gonna go out to the pool with mayda now though so i'm gunna go enjoy my family while ican. HAHAHA. ttyl hugz and kisses bye.
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(Lenore.)
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